Bye Bye Sugar Baby

This week i'm trying to cure myself of cravings. No cigarettes and, even harder, no sugar. It's the South Beach Diet, so that means no candy, chocolate, alchohol, starches, fruit or fruit juices.

I hardly know what to do with myself all day long. In some ways, it seems stupid to quit both of them at once. But to me it's quite sensible. They're both really the same thing - an oral fixation and something to do when you're trying to procrastinate, or fill up boredom. So how would it benefit me to give up sugar and smoke more, or give up smoking and eat more. It's just one addiction for another.

This way when i can't think what to do, i write something to keep my hands occupied, or clean something, or exercise, or take a sleeping tablet and go to bed at a reasonable hour.

Mostly it's okay. Yesterday i didn't have any sugar or cigarettes at all. But Monday and Tuesday i stopped quickly at Heather's work and had a cigarette with her. And last night, my mom's potluck and WI meeting, i had to sample some of everyone's homemade dessert.

Today, though, i really, really wanted a cigarette before i started filling out job applications so I drove all the way into town to borrow one from Heather. She wasn't there and I didn't want to own a whole pack so I drove all the way home again.

And now I've just had lunch - a veggie burger patty with salad and carrots (forbidden, high sugar content) and now all I want is a little snack to nibble on. But cannot bear the thought of any more nuts, cheese or yoghurt. Maybe I'll have some gum. Or a green pepper.

You see how much i've typed about nothing. It's to keep my hands occupied.